Yeah. I have all three series and I watch them religiously.Sheldon is my main squeeze.ha!

So what’s been doing? Nothing to be honest.

Oh yeah I have been doing paid posts for a certain platform for about a year now. They have a $50 cashout limit, meaning you have had to have accumulated at least $50 before you can request to be paid.

Uh a year yeah? A year later and I have $354 in my account.$354 that I forgot to cash out! I received an email three days ago reminding me of the fact, so I have $354 in my paypal account waiting for me to spend..

And spending I have been…

I need to major cleanup in my crafting area before I can start to play. I have bags,packages and parcels all siting here unwrapped and being waited to be played with!

The boy restarts school in about 12 days ,so I will most probably wait for that before I get dug in.

DS2 erupted into a big red blister on Tuesday afternoon, I called the doctors office  and was told to bring straight in.

It was my own personal GP who saw us and he thought it was another blast of chicken pox! He did say that you normally only catch it once but I can happen..

So we left with a diagnosis of chicken pox. We went to the chemists and I bought Calamine Lotion and cotton buds. I inked him up when we returned home and left them alone. He was re-inked at bedtime and the next morning when he awoke they were gone…

All over them. Gone.

He is still fine today.

Very bizarre if you asked me..

I slept from 10.30pmish till 3.20am when the brats decided they needed a pee break and couldn’t decide who would go first.DS2 did as he has sharper elbows than his brother..Fell asleep againwithin about 10 minutes, woke up a 7.30am ish-went for a pee-back to bed.
DS2 playing bricks in the bedroom, DS1 creeping around the kitchen looking for food (ie TREATS) to permanently borrow woke me again at 9.30am, this time I admit defeat and rise for the day.

After breakfast ,at around 11.30am I take the LDN, managed to sleep* for about an hour then get up.

Dinner made etc

4.30pm we all eat Nutella on toast, which was bought for me and me alone because no one else likes it apparently *huffs*

5pm, we get to crafting with paper-plates/paper-cups and a forever friends card set that I bought for myself on Saturday.

One FF card set and two hours later we are still knee deep in paper-plates and cups (of assorted colours) the living room wall is also sporting a very fetching purple/yellow/red/green mural type ‘thing’ which both boys and myself love.

Daddy does not love it.

8.10pm jag with Rebif

Almost 11pm and I’m calling it quits, blogged three times , did four paid postings and played 100,000,000 and 3 games of bejewelled on facebook (still to of leader board with 350,150) Smiles.

So I jagged myself tonight.

Carole was adament that I shouldn’t but guess what? She’s not here!

I know a lot of the personal bits that she doesn’t that made me feel a bit down.As the DH said earlier ” You are no worse or even better than you were before” He knows me pre-Rebif, so I trust his judgement over Caroles’

She is a sweet lady and such, a very dear sweet lady but she has only know me a month, so well-she has a lot to learn about me!

The LDN is on it’s way and should be here by Wednesday. Very exciting indeed!

The boy has broken for school holidays!! HURRAH! We are free for nine weeks! *giggles childishly*

Not much else happeniing to be honest ,so I’ll bug off and play on some of my other sites!!

The best thing about me is the way my brain works.

It is so funky and messed up that , gah, it is just that funky.

So no Rebif side effects eh ? Nah not me!!

Didn’t get any of the flu like symptoms, I didn’t get any site reactions either.

I got one better!!

Suicide Ideation.

I was aware of it , yes.

It was discussed with my MS Nurse, that and all the other usual side effects.

BAM!

It came straight-out of left field , that I was not expecting!

You could not make this shit up..

I am seriously fucked up kids..

Important part is that I know what it is, I was aware of the chance of it happening before I started on the Rebif.

what to do though??

Apart from playing with the notion of offing myself , it is all good.

I honestly cannot top myself anyways- DH ‘cooked’ the boys their lunch today..

Sweetcorn and Pasta shapes- together and cooked in the same pot- along with two vegetable fingers he cooked in the oven!

Gods help the waynes! He tried bless him, he did and well, he can clean up a storm. Hoovering, washing general house up keep. He is a master at that, props to the guy there but cooking?

Dear Gods above the boy has no clue..

The boys ate it , but DS1 quietly asked me ” Will you cook dinner tomorrow Mummy?”

We have a birthday boy on Sunday! And we will have a little man aged five years!

It feels like it was only yesterday that I saw him for the first time and yet here we are getting ready to start Year Two..

I awoke from the emergency Cesarean ( I had a cord prolapse) not knowing if my baby had survived.. My husband was the first face that I saw, he was looking at me and crying.. I opened my mouth to speak to him and he pointed behind me..

I turned my head to see this beautiful, angelic blond haired child- looking at me! He was wide awake and his big blue eyes were looking straight at me! Gods it was amazing..

The nurse came over, took him out of the incubator and said ” Someone is hungry Mommy” She put him to me and he latched straight on and fed for around 40 minutes. I was the transferred from recovery to my room , and me and the husband spent the next hour laughing and crying..

Fast Forward; We spent 40 minutes watching boy perform in a play for the parent/grandparents etc. It was the Fundamental Movement teacher who taught it to them. Fourteen little people , all singing, dancing and making a helluva noise playing their ‘musical instruments. They were then awarded their certificates for taking part in the class. Lovely!

We then left and headed to Toys’ r’ Us to purchase his birthday gift. Something that Daddy has been begging for him to have for a while. Five is an accepable age I think , and he is quite advanced anyhow so yeah, it was purchased today.

A smart red Nintendo DS plus three games; Cars O Rama (from the ‘Cars’ movie) Farm Life and a Super Mario Bros plus a spiffy ‘Cars’ protective case to keep his console safe.

Same rules will apply to the DS as he had in place for his V-Tech. Supervised access only , and no more than two hours three days a week. He will also lose the privilege if he plays up. He learned pretty sharpish that, that particular rule will be enforced!

Small boy also got a smaller Thomas set that was reduced to £14.99 from £29.99. Looking at it , I find it doubtful that it would ever have retailed at £30 but there you go!

I have been taking it a bit easier of late. The warmer weather has been hitting our shores and well, it has been affecting me  lot. I don’t think it is directly MS related , it’s more of a ‘just me thing’ regardless, heat and myself do not agree.

I feel a lot more sluggish and achy all over. We had the fans blasting in the bedroom so from about 5pm we all decamped into the master b-room, it is situated at the back of the property and therefore is cooler in general so it helped. The boys were all shirtless and I was wearing a very fetching muscle Tee belonging to the DH , but I was still boiling!

Tonight is gonna be another sticky , humid night no doubt. Time to start sleeping in the nutty again!

Work..Um I have decided to start going part time for two reasons. Firstly, for my own benefit. I have noticed a slight change in my own abilities. I have also had ‘fatigue issues’ but it is starting to hit me a little harder. I am on D3 and B12 tablets but it is 50/50 on any given day on whether they actually lift me.

And secondly, the advertisers aren’t paying big bucks for the opps. Last month I made just under 50% of what I had made the month before. It is still a decent monthly wage with no extra expenses ie travel, lunches etc, but it is still a big enough drop. My monthly craft budget has been hit to accommodate the change but it was down a lot anyways because I am not crafting that much so why buy? My shopping habits have changed drastically anyhow, so it isn’t such a big deal.

I haven’t made any concrete plans, and whether this is just a ‘summer thing’ or not remains to be seen.

The Ashes to Ashes finale is on at 10pm so I am gonna jump off to go and make some edibles for the DH. I only came online at 7.55pm so a short hop and I’m done for tonight.

Not quite content with dropping £135 on SU products last week, She treated herself to some new Basic Grey paper-pads on Thursday. I was being good and aside from the SU goodies (my weakness!) I have been really,really super good!

Until just now.. The Greeting Farm Roll Call kit dropped in my basket whilst I was innocently browsing over at Quixotic paperie. Bad Girl!!

It is Saturday and all three boys are at the Grandparents until around 8pm, it is a nice break from being a cook on constant call but it does get a little annoying and lonesome after the first two hours..

Lover Mine has been read and yet again J.R Ward delivers the goods! To be really sad and not so accidentally tragic I restarted Dark Lover yesterday. I rarely, if ever, re-read any of the books that I buy so it really is a first for me. Yes, it has been less than a month since I discovered the Brotherhood but there you have it!

I am logging off to go play with my SU toys, have a poo and get some Doctor Pepper and not necessarily in that order.

I’ll rant like a maniac rather than ramble aimlessly next time because I know you prefer that.

I’m bored..I should maybe get a bit of crafting done but I couldn’t be bothered.

I would like to read but everything in my TBR list is Crime Thrillers and such and I’m really in the mood for some sci/fantasy stuff. I do have the Lora Leigh and a Kelley Armstrong (Men of the Other-World) on it’s way but ah I don’t know. I guess I will just hang tight until they arrive. The Kelley Armstrong is just a compilation of Novellas that were available to read on her website but I do want it in paperback.

I think that there is a new Nalini Singh (Psy-Changeling series) but I can’t seem to get my brain to remember the last NS I read..I think it was Visions of Heat? Maybe then again Maybe not.

I also picked up another title by J.R Ward-Covet , it’s about Fallen Angels from what I can gather it should be here in the morning.

I’m getting conflicting information with regards to taking LDN with Rebif. Some say do, some say don’t. I got a call from both my GP and the my Neurologists’ secretary today. My GP rang first to ask me if I got an appointment to see the Neuro yet. “Err no not yet”  I said- ” Will you ring his secretary and see what gives?” says he ” Of course says me.. I hang up and the phone rings- No prizes for guessing. It was the secretary informing me that Dr.D wants me in on Thursday..

Okay, no doubt it is about the MS meds..

Lovely says She..

Is fighting to get back to studying with the OU. I was working towards the  Certificate in Web Applications ,and just before the final assessment the MS got in the way. I was studying TT280 (Web Applications ;design, development and management) at the time and somehow manage to complete and pass the course but I had to set it aside while I got my self together now almost a year later I think I’m getting there.Unfortunately for me, the final registration for the course TT281 was last month so I will have to wait until Feb 2011!
I had a minor splurge last night. Minor in comparison to what I used to do that is. I got my vitamin D3 tabs and a copy of ‘Black Jack’ by Lora Leigh. The SU marker club that I signed up for about two months ago is going ahead in April and for once I am first out of the blocks with regards to the hostess month. I won’t list the entire order but it did (including the first set of markers and postage) come to £80. something pence. I have my regular SU monthly order due in also ,so along with the telephone and broadband bills it has been a expensive month.

DS2 is doing well, he isn’t completely covered with spots ,as was his brother, and seems to be fairing well enough. He was a little down today and spent the day cuddling on my lap and asking me ” Mommy, I don’t feel good-can I have huggle?” oh Baby he really knows how to break my heart that child…

I do have some makes to throw up on the other place so ,that is me for tonight.

I spoke too soon and jinxed poor DS2.. He started erupting this afternoon. We’ve already had two doses of calamine lotion and he seems happy enough. DS1 played the big brother card and told him all about Chicken Pox. It was soo sweet, DS1 told him that they were only sore on your pinky winky but just to tell Mummy,Daddy or him and they would hold your hand when you need to pee!! ah bless!

I won an eBay auction last night- at $9.12 for a set of ‘A light Heart’ from SU , postage was £3 odds so it went for going rate from sellers over here. I need to buy some more D3 vitamin tabs as well,so I may as well just head back over there in a bit.

DS2 took his prized new set of <(Usborne Phonics Readers) books that I bought him to school today to show his teacher and she promptly stole them! She did write me a note in his link book explaining to me that  she would love to read them to the class if I didn’t mind. Great! As long as he gets them back in the same condition as he took them, then I don’t mind at all.
I’m heading up to bedroom to watch tonight episode of ‘V’ with the DH , who is already camped out waiting for me to bring up tea and biccies.  I think he fancies Anna actually! He’s a strange being all together sometimes, at least she is better looking than Lucy Lawless or Ranee O Connor from Xena..