Tomorrow sees DS1 back at school! He starts Year Two..

Bless him to bits he is well excited at the thought of seeing all his friends again.

Mommy and Daddy do not share the child’s enthusiasm unfortunately..

I just my October Craft Stamper and yet another wad of 12×12 papers from PaperMaze. I have yet another ton of papers that have not even been sent yet! I really need to stop spending!

I just read on UKStupid about someones mate who has ME is threatening to kill herself. She can’t cope!

HAfuckingHAHA- just get over it bitch- try have a real medical condition and then you can start moaning. I think that she has realised that the government shakedown of fraudulent claims is going to hit her and hit her BIG. It is about time that those scroungers were put in their place!

For the first time ever I have spent over £400 in one week on ME.

Yes, little old me!

Mostly craft stash I have to admit, then books as the second in the queue.

I don’t know how I manage to do that but I did!!

It did include £30 for my LDN, so that justifies it right?

Yes, my bad! Very very bad!

But hey, most of it was due to the cash out that I wasn’t expecting..and it is my birthday soon,so ..

Yeah okay,  I get it I’m a silly moo.

I have been drowning in paperbacks again!

I bought a paperback about two years ago now, (Michael Marshall, Bad Things) and for some reason it was pushed to the bottom of the TBR pile and well, forgotten about.

I was browsing through my rather large pile and pulled it out! It turned out to be a very good read indeed, so much so that I have just bought his back catalogue for eBay for less than a tenner!

Very pleased with that- Four brand new reads including postage for £9.10 – I love eBay!!

I ate that read within 48 hours, so I cannot wait to get my grubby little mitts on the rest!

I haven’t started the new Lisa Gardner yet- I will tomorrow though.

I  do not get people who say they don’t have the patience to read a book.. Honestly.

I adore my books and love exploring new genres and authors, the first stop when I go to Asda/Tescos is the book shelves! And yes, I have thrown back certain non essential food stuffs in favour of getting a paperback!

You have to prioritise my dears..

Okay, all sorted I think. Everything back to it’s original state.

Gawds I hate those episodes, but I guess it was overdue. I haven’t had any major exacerbation in a very long time. Was it an exacerbation or was it a relapse? I cannot remember the correct definition of either at the moment? I have experienced it before about 7 years ago? I was hospitalised the also. Nasty!

I’ve gone on a major craft splurge the past few week- Papers (tons of )- about £30 pounds worth 0f Prima, MME ,Making Memories,Dovecraft,DCWV-a lot!

Stamps=CraftsUlove were having a mad stamp sale, so yeah I took the bait and bought packets of Penny Blacks and various others and just tonight I somehow manage to spend £20 odd quid on S.W.A.L.K stamps from Crafters Companion!

My bad.

I am almost finish Karin Slaughters ‘Broken’ and I do have a few others that I am bursting to start-Richard Montanari and the new Lisa Gardner to boot!

The family is all good, nothing major or even minor to report on that side of things.Apart from my latest MS hit absolutely nothing has been going down.

I’m still slightly fucked up with regards to the bowel movements but it’s stabilising a little. Hopefully by the end of the week it will be business as usual once again.

Not much else happening to be honest, everything does seem to have ground to a halt for the time being..

School restarts in a few weeks and I think the boy is eager to go back for some strange reason.

I think it is because DS2 has started the fightback in a major way! DS1 has always had an upper hand when it comes to the ‘brotherhood’ but little man has decided that he is no longer having it, and has started to push back at his brothers age advantage. He might be nearly two years younger and about a foot shorter but he outweighs his brother by at last 14lbs so he does have that one in his corner if you get me.

I really have to back into a blogging routine ,so I best pay a visit to some of my other sites tonight, so that is your lot.Fuck off!

Yes, I abandoned TC.

yes, yes get over it.

The thing with MS is that it is very unpredictable and you have a  tendency to get sick every whip about.

This time it was my bowels that stopped working, and as everybody knows MS is all about not being able to walk..

If only blondie, if the only problem that I had revolved around being able to walk or not then life would be sweet. I would be happily be in a wheelchair if that were the case.

Unfortunately that is not to be.

When your bowels stop working then you are constipated and in my case. Seriously so.

It also means that you can’t break wind which causes all sorts of nasty pains. Very nasty. Your tummy swells to being eight months pregnant proportions and you want to chuck up every other minute. Except that it doesn’t result in a wonderful little person to hold it means that you have to go into to hospital and be threatened with an enema every five minutes..

MS sucks, it it isn’t just a way to get money from the stingy government (David C is a tool). It sucks (so does he and his minions)

BLAH!
Work,family,life,work BLAH!!
I need a holiday I reckon, a long, long holiday somewhere far far away, somewhere warm without wifi or even a laptop in sight.
LDN is working nicely. I have the timing licked so no more scarily early mornings anymore!

Between 9 and 10 am , I then take a nap about an hour later in  order to sleep it off and everything is honky dory!

I took the past few evenings off and really I should not be online tonight but it’s not work related for a change. I just want to recharge the MP3 player and order the August Craft Stamper (which has just been done) and I’m off up to bed to watch Top Gear.

Very boring, very predicable life that I lead but there you go eh?

Still plugging away with the LDN. Last night wasn’t too bad to be honest. I awoke at 3am ish again, went down to the toilet (went and was back within two minutes!) then it took me about five minutes to drop off again.

I was tired and wanting to fall asleep ,but the Boeing 747 that was parked next time was having none of it!

For the past few days, the Dearest Husband has had a throat infection , and has started snoring. Lovely, wonderful, what a joy. I am complete insomniac due to the LDN and Rebif , but this episode is seriously not helping matters.

To cap it all off, this morning he rolled over , took a look at me (two hours sleep and unwashed hair) and said ” You look like Sh*t”

No doubt not so darling soon to be ex was up late last night rereading 101 Sweet things to say to your girlfriend.

I got up soon after and made breakfast for the children.

I have taken over the boys care from 7 am till 7pm everyday this week because he is “sick” .

I took the LDN at 11am and to be honest he came down at 12 noon and let me off for two hours, so I managed to sleep off today’s dose. I do think that time frame works for me providing that I do manage to get a rest about an hour later. Tonight will be the killer though, I hope the isomnia clears up soon, I do manage to play catch up in the end but it is very trying to say the least.

Hopefully it will all be worth it in the long run?

Yeah, hopefully

And neither can I..

Rebif brings me back to the world of the living at around 5am the ,the morning after I jag. That I have learned to deal with thus far, I started the LDN on Friday- Did you hear me?

I STARTED THE LDN ON FRIDAY NIGHT!

It is the most amazing thing ever! For the first time in a very longtime, my body feels completely and utterly normal.
My bladder is functioning like a non MS-er, the brain fog?
What brain fog? I could be Stephen Hawkings’ love child!

I can barely believe it. I had heard the tales and well you know , you take  what you read online with a pinch of salt.
My reason for wanting the LDN was for bladder issues. I have serious hesitancy problems and it does get very uncomfortable after straining to pee for a good 20 minutes when you are fit to burst to begin with. And don’t even suggest anything to do with a catheter, that is so not happening here.
But it is all good, so far two days in there is a slight delay-maybe a minute or two – but from where I was last week in the peeing stakes , it is all good!

World Cup Final night ,so I have been told to stay away till after the deed is done.No doubt dear sir is having a blokes night with himself and two bottles of Stella!

I am so looking forward to my bed tonight though, the last night I had a proper nights sleep was Thursday , and gawds am I ready for that puppy tonight?
I will take the LDN in the mornings and it will, apparently, have the same effect during the day. If you feel a strong wind when wandering past Temporal-Confusion that was me running on by

If I could jump, I’m sure I’d rattle!

At 10 am the phone rang, I answered- actually it missed the first time because I didn’t reach the handset in time. I managed to snatch it the second time though. It rings, I answer  it was Carole my MS nurse ringing to check in with me.

I told her what was happening and she basically told me I had to stop the Rebif immediately and I needed to go see my GP.

We talked about it for a spell and I agreed to go see my Doctor.

She rang ahead and had a chat with him.  I then managed to get through (have no clue how she managed so fast!) and by 12pm I was sitting in the doctors surgery.

Got there, explained and we both agreed that I was not in any immediate danger of killing myself! For some reason she was convinced that I would hang up the phone then go top myself.. bizarreO

I don’t want to stop the Rebif because other than the small fact that I was thinking about being dead it was all good.

Doc gave me a script for-fluoxetine? I agreed to take them to try and stay on Rebif.

My LDN is on the way, apparentlt this can and will pass.

I am aware of it, My husband is also very much aware of the slight change in my personality. I seem to be obsessing over small issues from time to time, that and I am very quick in being annoyed. I am usually a very slow burn and things have to go on for a decent length of time before I would mention them.

I am not overly concerned at the moment. The usual MS crew have been consulted and they think as long as I keep tabs on it, it will blow over.

I am still gonna jag tomorrow though,Carole wants me to stop and try Copaxone. Not a fucking hells chance! I chose rebif because I don’t like needles- I still don’t!